1...2...3... three simple numbers

1,2,3.... 1,2,3....
The same numbers
Every time I go outside
Looking down the road
1,2,3.... let go!
Run... but I can't
To leave my life behind
Who I am
Who I was....
I'm not that little girl
As my mother calls me
I'm not that athlete
The person who has a team
No!
I'm the person who...
Hates to live...
To wake up every morning
Never wanting to go on
I don't want this
Not to live any more
Not to breath any more
Wishing the pain would....
Just one day leave....
Leave my body....
Leave my mind....
But it wont....
Never in this decade...
Or this century...
Unless I do something....
So take the gun...
Count to three....
But you still can't....
End the pain

Built up Inside

I look in the mirror
What do I see?
I see sadness in my eyes
All the hatred kept inside
Never let loose
To feel all the pain inside
Which has built up
For years and years
Always letting it out
At the wrong person
I wish the pain would end
But sadly that wont happen
I'll run away to end it
To end the pain
Me myself goes through
And the pain I cause
Friends, family
It  doesn't matter
Soon it'll end...
And everyone will be happy...

Outcast

Push, slap, kick, trip
No one there to help
No one there to hear you scream
Everyone ignoring you
So you move along and leave
In class your taunted
In the hall your haunted
By all the names and words
That each person has to say
Your an outcast
Theres no place for you to belong
You run... you hide
From all the madness and hate

One day your alone
Someone walks up
They speak to you
But not with those names
That the others have told
You smile... they smile
You talk... they talk
Your soon not alone
But an outcast club

Heart of Hate

Monster.... killer...
Are these the words you hear?
You say I'm here for a way
To stop this madness and pray
For everyone who has gone away
Because you took their life to save
Could it be
That your heart is full of waves
Hatred one moment... love the next
But it's never the same...
So your heart is full of hate

Monster

I see that girl everyday
In the mirror staring away
Full of hatred and sad to say
Is that truly the girl I am outside?
I wonder who I am
Where I've been
And why I've not changed
I feel inside so much hate
But dont know what to say
What do you see?
On the outside
Do you fear me?
Do you hate me?
I will never know
Because you left me with a blow
To remember what I did
On that last minute of your very last day
When you left this world
With all the kindness you could say
So what is it that people have to say?
You're a monster... who has to pay